Things are not okay

"Things as they are, are not okay 

when someone is absent 

when someone is missing 

things are not okay right now, and they won't be till you come back."

'Right now by contrast I am technically happy but there is this underlying sense of dullness. 

I want to be different before I do anything different. So I'm waiting for God, and God is waiting for me to see if I am really waiting for Him, and not just wanting things from Him. And as God and I eyeball each other in this way, I feel good. I feel alive and engaged with what matters, and I'm going to win this waiting game with God.'

-Pete Greig from Red Moon Rising (Best. book. I can relate to so much.)