I was unaware that I can become overwhelmed by beauty. I mean really overwhelmed in it's true definition, "buried or drowned beneath a huge mass". There is so much all around. The people. The weather. The landscape, the art pieces, the stars, the leaves, the smell, the crisp air, the music, the food (we had SALMON yesterday) (our core group had pancakes for supper last night with MAPLE SYRUP) (we had apple crisp + tonnes more pastry and cakes donated today from the bakery in town) the handmade art shop, the gallery, the clothing. Everything.
I am blessed.
But I am overwhelmed by it, to the point where I am not fully appreciating it because I just don't know what to do with it, how do I ever repay the Lord for what he's given me?
What does he want me to do with all this?
I try to get away to pray more.
But my praying is never suffice. I can't pray enough.
I try to read more. But I don't have enough time in the day to read as much as I'd like.
I try to love people. But there are so many people here I feel like I only scratch the surface.
I'm left in a hole.
But then I come home and go in my kitchen and sit with Bianca. She is completely bubbling over with excitement about how much she loves the Lord. (this is a regular occurrence) I tell her I've never been around her when she is not sharing to someone how amazing God is and ask if she's always been like that. She goes on a speech about how she is just in awe everyday here by the beauty and love and blessing all around her that she can't help but thank and praise God, all the time.
God just wants us!
He wants to know we are thankful! And that's all he wants me to do with his blessings. The beauty I'm being shown. He's showing me he loves me through the way that impacts me most. But he doesn't need me to repay Him. Everything I have to offer is useless to him. He just wants me. My time. My devotion. My thanks.
Hosea 6:6, I want your loyalty, not your sacrifices. I want you to know me, not to give me burnt offerings.
Man, that truth hit me so hard this week.
What did I learn?
HE JUST WANTS US.
