"What kind of kingdom are you signing up for?"
This is one of the main synopsis' I will be taking out of outreach.
I would go to bible school, meet someone there, get married young, have kids and a big family in a nice house. Life would be beautiful and easy because Jesus loves me and wants the best for me.
Jesus does love me. But when I offer my life to him, I am giving something up. I am giving up the possibility of living in a cookie cutter life. Meaning if he wants me to see something different, to learn something different, then that will happen instead. Instead of my plans and my ideas and my dreams. I don't want to create these plans and hope they are fulfilled and brought to completion by God. If I offer my life it will hurt - I'll be so tested and tried. Am I ready for that?
That's what I was unsure of. I don't know if I want to follow after this kingdom after all.
Maybe I just want to go my own way pursuing a life that suits my wants, that is easy, and meet God mildly throughout. Praising him but not really taking the time to sacrifice my life to him. To take up my cross and follow him.
Because that really hurts. And doesn't look very pretty. And I don't know if I'm ready for that.
When I started to go through trials they were"only for a season". Well that season has been going on now for 2 years and has not left. Is it still just a season?
What about the people that have been going through that "season" for years? more than half their life? their entire life? What do you tell them?
I don't think these hardships are a season. I think they are just life. And I have a lot to learn about life.
What kind of kingdom am I signing up for..?
